Giving thanks for where I am in life
When I started counting my blessings, my whole life turned around. —Willie Nelson
It’s a bank holiday morning and I woke up to the quietness in my neighbourhood. There were no cars rushing to get to places and as I got up to go to the gym, half an hour later there were also not many cars on the road. I walked in sheer silence and rather than listening to my usual meditative track, I decided to walk in silence and listen to the birds and trees move with the light wind. Aaah, Bliss! I thought to myself and smiled.
It’s a little less than a month before my big move and as I looked around in silence I thanked God for how far I’ve come and for where I currently am in life. I’ve been wanting to get to the other side of the move so badly as there is a lot to do before and during but this morning I decided to appreciate the time I have spent here and the time I had left to spend here. In my effort to pack my things I have come across old journals both personal and prayer journals. I skimmed through some and realised all the many experiences I had gone through and how much they’ve shaped my life now. As I walked I thought of all the encounters and experiences I have had so far, the many wonderful people I have met and even those with whom my experiences were not so nice.
I thought of how all these had made me evolve to the person I am now. I thought of the prayers that haven’t been answered, the relationships that hadn’t gone anywhere and I thanked God and the Universe for the rejections and diversions. Not all of my dreams and desires have manifested yet but I felt a sense of peace with the knowing that I am right where I need to be in life this moment and I am very grateful for that. Like so many people I also desire some things that I have less control over as to how and when they manifest in my life but rather than being frustrated and feeling sorry for myself I have decided to celebrate and accept this phase in my life.
Yes, to celebrate the fact that I can do things, move to places and enjoy the peace and quiet without much readjustments and dependents. I will never have this phase and moment right here again so as I wait and count down the days to move, I will enjoy each moment and day that I have left in my community and apartment. There is so much happening and so much to enjoy so why wish my days away? If there is one thing I have learnt from my first move it’s that my happiness will not be found on the other side of my move but my happiness will be found in the embracing of change and all the nuances that it bears.
I know that I want things to be different and I envision them also being different when I move but I will not hurry the process, for everything, I believe is working as it is supposed to. The dreams that haven’t yet manifested, the ones that didn’t manifest and the ones that are manifesting are all working out as it’s supposed to. I don’t have all the answers and that is OK because I didn’t have any either when I did this almost 9 years ago. This time around I have psyched myself to embrace change as the best thing for my future development and to be joyful in the experiences leading up to it and through it. It feels like it’s come full circle and I am very grateful to be here to experience it.
Whatever, the future holds I will look forward with joyful expectation for what’s to come but for now my heart is full because I have so much to be grateful for, even if all my innermost desires haven’t manifested yet. I don’t know what you are going through at the moment that’s is making you wish this moment or today away but I want to encourage you to take a look at all that is going well in your current situation. How far you’ve come and be joyful for that. For it is when we give thanks for the things we already have that we get more to be grateful for. Now, as I sit here finishing up writing this, I count my blessings for I have many and today, right this moment, as I write and you read, is one big blessing, our chance to breathe and feel again. So going into the weekend, I want to encourage you to acknowledge and accept where you currently are in life, it’s no mistake, you’re not too late or too early but exactly on time and in the right place.
Affirmation: I am divinely guided and protected at all times and everything is working out for me.
Images: Jared Rice, Marcos Paulo Prado, Julian Bock
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