Grateful for Endings
With endings come new beginnings - Alexandra Potter
When I was younger I used to dread things coming to an end and even in my adulthood I sometimes struggle to let go off things. However, I started rethinking my stance when I came across the saying that “This too shall pass” and the fact that nothing stays the same forever and whatever phase I am in currently will also end at some point. That saying was not the most comforting but I realised that such is life. From this mindset I started operating from a place where there is a season for everything so when I was in a slump I allowed myself to go through and work through it and when things were on a high I enjoyed and appreciated the moments more.
This week I am brought to these philosophies again as I complete moving arrangements. My life in the UK is coming to an end and as daunting as the whole idea of moving has been I am now at a stage of complete surrender and excitement. Like almost 9 years ago, when I moved here, I didn’t know what was awaiting me and what to expect but I was hopeful it was the right decision. This time again I am not sure what tomorrow will bring but I am more than hopeful that this is the right decision. I know that the developments I want in my life will require me to make this move and so with blind faith and absolute trust I am doing it all over again.
Yes, I am ending a chapter here but the beautiful thing with this ending is, it is the beginning of another wonderful chapter. In my journey so far I have learnt that endings are necessary for growth and expansion. There’d been times when I held on so tightly to things like relationships and jobs even though they weren’t serving me just because I was afraid of them ending. This right here, is from a limiting belief of lack and fear and so most of the times I was forced out of these situations by a higher power which was never a nice experience.
This time around, when I have tried to get some things sorted but not been able to, I have stopped pushing or holding on tightly, I’ve accepted and let God. I knew my move was imminent when I couldn’t find a house to buy or even a new house to rent, in a time when the market was good for buying and renting. Such time bound contracts could be hard to get out off and so when this proved so challenging I stopped and waited. Then in a conversation the idea of moving back came up and after some thought, I accepted the idea as it was presented to me.
It was not on my radar anytime soon because I was intentional in wanting to build the rest of my life here. But isn’t there a saying that - Man proposes and God disposes? Now my dream of buying property, establishing my businesses etc. has taking a different turn and I am more than OK with it. I know if I want to be where I dream of, or the person and business woman I desire then I will have to end something to make way for a new beginning of things.
So, today instead of being afraid of things coming to an end, I rejoice with thanksgiving in that fact that this is the start of a new adventure where I get to experience and grow further in my journey. I am no longer afraid of the uncertainty because I know it will all work out. It has before and it will again. The end of my UK adventure has come, this too is passing and I totally embrace this ending in joyful anticipation for the birthing of a new and wonderful beginning.
Affirmation: I am letting go of fear and doubt