Gratitude in the Wait
Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realise they were the big things.” —Robert Brault
I am in limbo and feeling a bit out of it at the moment but I guess you also know the feeling of waiting on something that you have absolutely no control over. In last week’s newsletter I shared about letting go and letting God and even though that is my new attitude, I still want to know and have an answer now. It is not the easiest place to be but as I sat to write this I paused to reflect on the many times I’d been here before. Yes, being in this particular phase isn’t that new to me and so I decided to count the number of times I’d come out of this with a much better outcome than I had anticipated. There were many.
It made me realise that my fear and worry were ok emotions I had to go through but not places I needed to stay because no matter what, I will be getting through it. This phase isn’t going to last like all the others before it. I sighed a breath of relief and murmured to myself- This too shall pass. I made a mental note of being in a similar situation almost 10 years ago and now looking at where I am, I was assured somehow that it will all work out.
In my almost 10 years ago experience, I moved to the UK to start my career, living with people I didn’t know and in a society I wasn’t familiar with. I moved so far away for a job opportunity that took me a good 5 hours drive from my sister, the only family I have here. I not only survived but I more than thrived and I am thriving. At that time, I wasn’t even as aware as I am now and with the experience and expertise I have now so can I justify being worried about doing this same thing over again? This time to a place I know, back to be with family and a society I have grown up in? Maybe not, but I won’t be human if I also didn’t feel anxious or scared with the unknown. Yes, this is home and yes I know how things work here but not knowing how things will go and things already not going fully to plan, I have to trust that everything will work out better than I expect and I am also divinely guided and protected at all times.
Now, thinking back on this and not knowing what the next couple of days, weeks, and months might bring I resort to being grateful for how far I have come and all that I have achieved. The person I have grown to be and the amazing people in my life. I am focusing on these as I work and wait for things to turn around. I can’t move things along faster than they are going but what I can do is enjoy the good times I get to spend with family as I am visiting. Enjoy the working relations I have with my colleagues and mini interactions with my current neighbours because this is what I have and I am blessed with now.
So, as I wait I will remind myself whenever the worrisome thoughts come to notice, what is currently available to me. Great health, a beautiful life, loving relations and creativity beyond my wildest dreams, intangible things that you and I unconsciously take for granted. In my wait, I will be grateful for the opportunity to be here experiencing the belly-laughs with my mum and sister. The lovely and eye-opening conversation with my little cousin and the beautiful dinner date with my girlfriend. If nothing at all I am blessed today and I have all that I need for today. Like the bible says - tomorrow has enough troubles of its own. Knowing this as you enter the weekend, it is my sincere hope that whatever you are also uncertain about or that isn’t going your way you will find joy in the things you already have and are going your way.
Affirmation: I will remain joyful in this moment that I am blessed with.